Feb. 14:  I cannot take it all in.  I am watching without seeing.  I am hearing without listening.  I am feeling without understanding.  The bright Chapel, the white coffin with red roses, and all the beautiful flower arrangements around the coffin are perfect.  The priest is saying the right words, we are singing the right hymns.  I read the poem that I had selected because it was You.  The whole funeral service is perfect except one very important detail.  You were not there. It's Valentines day - Infinity Love to My Beloved Mormor.