Memorial Day
Brother Warrior Today is a day we remember all the fallen soldiers.
For some of us it could mean someone who was very close to us. For others it is a day when we as a nation honor the men and women who fought for our freedom.
Many of the soldiers didn't become soldiers because they wanted to, they became soldiers because within them they had a strong heart that said they had to.
Today these soldiers are not just honored, they are also missed, loved and never forgotten.
A very close friend of mine is feeling all these emotions today, as it feels like it was yesterday she got the news about her brother in Afghanistan. Her husband wrote and recorded the song, "Brother Warrior". The song says it all.
It was written for one special brother, but it is a song for every fallen soldier and their families.
My heart is filled with love for my friend today, and also with gratitude to all the men and women who have served our country. They wanted this world to be a better place to live in. They made a difference, and they still make a permanent mark on our hearts.
Please click on the words "Brother Warrior" at the beginning of this post. Take a moment and listen to this song with an open heart.
Forgiveness
Sorry is a too small of a word sometimes. It does not include the sorrow and the pain it caused someone.
To say, and truly mean that you are sorry for something you said or did, means that you understand the hurt your behavior caused. It does not excuse a hurtful behavior, but it means that the person you hurt matters to you.
If your intention was to never hurt this person, there is a big chance that the other person will recognize that. Forgiveness can take time. Be patient.
We are all human and we do make mistakes. It is how we handle our mistakes that will define us. If you let your tongue slip and your words hurts another person, there is no way to take those words back. They are out there, and have sneaked in to the other person’s heart. You need to make it right again, but how? The only thing you can do is to ask for forgiveness with all your heart. If you know that you have hurt someone, let them know how sorry you are. Do not be proud or scared to be rejected. You need to do right from your end of the relationship.
If the person forgives you, is not the same as your behavior was justified. It just means that both of you recognize that your relationship is worth fighting for. To not let words spoken in frustration destroy what you do have together; let it be a friend, child, parent, or a lover.
I assume most of us are walking around needing to forgive someone who has hurt us in some way. To hold on to resentment will only bring poison to our souls, and we are hurting ourselves more that way. If you are able to forgive someone for his or her actions that hurt you, you are setting yourself free. Do you need to ask someone for forgiveness, or do you need to forgive someone? The time is now.
Today I am the one asking someone for forgiveness. I messed up some time ago, and my words hurt someone I love dearly. It all came from my own shortcomings and judgmental mind. So what do I do after I have asked for forgiveness?
Today I am trying to be a better version of myself than yesterday. I am also trying to give the person I hurt both space and time for the wounds I inflicted to heal. I pray for forgiveness as loud as I can. With all my heart.
Trust
When you start trusting a friend with your heart, you are actually giving them a piece of your heart. If that trust is broken, the missing piece in your heart is not replaceable.
Someone that I trusted and loved with all my heart, just used and deceived me. I fully believed it was true friendship, but I was fooled. This person was a real good actor, and my brown eyes were too blue.
It will be awhile until I will dare to trust a new person completely. The hurt of this deceit will take some time to get over. I have time, but I don't have another heartache in me.
For now I will fill the empty piece in my heart with all the love that I have for my true friends. My friends that are in it for the whole ride, with bumps in the road and all.
The Fog
Feb. 18: The empty fog is back. It swept over me without warning. I cannot focus on anything with this limitied vision. I cannot see clear without You. My heartbeat echoes back and forth around my rib cage. My heart is reaching no one , sensing no one. No one except You, and the empty space that You are taking up.