Fear

You have all heard the expression that “to overcome your fears, you must face them.”  There is no going around, which is easier said than done.  Like most people I am afraid of a few things, and I deal with my fears differently depending on what the fear is about.  Some things that I am afraid of, I simply choose to avoid.  Some fears I meet hesitantly, and a few fears I stare right in the eye.  The fears that I avoid facing will continue to be with me.  With the fears that I try my best to face, there is a chance that I will overcome them with time. When it comes to your health you do not have the luxury to contemplate if you will face your fear or not.  You just do.  Like I will do tomorrow.

With every cell in my body trembling today, I have no choice in the matter but to face my fear.

Tomorrow I will enter the “twilight zone” and trust that the doctor knows what he is doing.  Writing this I realize that I am afraid of two things tomorrow: the procedure itself and the result.  In reality this means that I am afraid of the unknown.  My battle that I am facing tomorrow is small in comparison to many others.  So this is not a pity party.  It is just me acknowledging that I am in fact scared.  Maybe you are scared of something in your life as well?  It might be something real or imagined.  It does not matter what it is.  The fear is real.

Try to find a loved one that can take your hand so you can face your fear.  Dare to stare it down.  I will try my best to do just that tomorrow.  I am surrounded by love, and with that thought I realize that I have nothing to be afraid of.

First I just have to visit “la-la-land”, which my son (who has had several medical procedures done) calls it.  Hopefully I will not say too many inappropriate things while staying in “la-la-land”.  Only the doctor and nurse will know …

I will meet you all again on the other side of the twilight zone.  Looking forward to it.

Reach Out

Reach outDo you know a person that used to be in your life but no longer is?  Someone that you wish would be a part of your life again. I do.  I’ve several people that for one reason or another have drifted away from me.  Sometimes I think I have been the “drifter”.  All of that is part of life.  People come and people go in our lives, and often it has to do with our different stages in life. When we drift apart from someone (I am not talking romantic relationship), we often assume that the other person is busy living his or her life.  You might be thinking that you grew apart and all is well.  That might be the wrong assumption.

This week I reconnected with someone who was an important part of my childhood. We became adults and lost touch.  I (wrongly) assumed that this person had no interest in being part of my life.  That I had not seen this person in fifteen years had, as I learned, nothing to do with me.  As a matter of fact, this person had lived not far from hell.  If I had only known, instead of just assuming that we just drifted apart, I would have reached out sooner.

Thanks to a mutual friend, I heard something that led me to reach out my hand in cyber space.  The person I was reaching out to “took my hand” immediately.  We are slowly finding each other again, telling our life stories to each other.  I’m so grateful that I learned what really happened, even if my heart aches with the knowledge of the life this person has endured.  That we finally have reconnected makes my heart smile though.

So reach out your hand to someone that you lost touch with, someone who meant something to you in the past.  You might be the only one doing it.  If the other person is capable of grabbing your hand, you will forever be grateful for that you took that first step.

Life is too short to loose people that are worth having in our lives.

Morning

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I've never been a morning person, and I now have a dog who is not a "morning dog". We are a perfect match for each other. Taking in the morning slowly opens up my heart for clarity. I'm in no rush to feel the stress of all the demands that surrounds me. I know I've things to do. Things that I actually want to do. But I also need time to fully be awake, and take in the morning glory. In that way I can contribute to the world with my presence, instead of being stressed out of having to rush into the day. Not all mornings work like this. Sometimes I have commitments that makes me jump out of bed. I need those days as well. Today though, I've the best excuse to linger in bed. Never wake a sleeping baby. So for today, the world can wait a little bit.