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Sitting here taking the morning in, I realize what I need to do next. To lift my lazy b**t off the chair and go for a walk. Why? Because "movement is vital", as one great doctor told me. Some days it's easier said than done, but I know in my heart that the doctor is right. So instead of taking a pill, I'm taking a walk. Movement is vital.
Things don’t mean a thing, is what most of us know when it comes to real life. What really matters is LOVE. Except when a gift is received from a special person close to your heart. Then the meaning of the gift can multiple, like it did for me on Mother’s Day. The necklace I received is beautiful, but it’s more than that. It represents the infinity love that the children and I share.
I will wear this necklace with pride and happiness. The necklace came with a meaningful message that rings true. We are part of one another. The circle of Love will continue forever.
During Mother’s Day weekend our whole family took an evening walk in our neighborhood. We were almost at the top of “our” mountain when we passed an old tree to our left. My youngest son, who is 16, looked at me and then at the tree. “I dare you”, he said and started walking towards the tree. He never thought I would follow him, he did not know me when I was a child.
A jolt of pure happiness came with just the thought of climbing a tree. That feeling made no room for hesitation. Soon enough we were both climbing the tree. One teenager, and the other one a middle-aged woman. At that very moment we were both kids, who saw the world with wide-eyed curiosity.
With butterflies in my stomach as I made my way up the tree, my whole inner self was thrown back to a time when I every summer used to climb trees together with my best friend. Always with a nervous excitement and a happy heart.
This time I took my time and stopped climbing at one pint to take it all in. I saw the beauty of where I live, the never-ending ocean in front of me and the mystic mountains to my back. A freeing sense of wonder rushed through me.
With all the responsibilities of being an adult that inner child was still with me. I am grateful to my son who has not lost his sense of still bringing out the child within, and I hope he will keep doing it. His "I dare you", made me feel alive, and my heart was smiling.
So go out there and climb a tree today, or whatever you used to do as a child with a happy heart. You will be surprised how wonderful the moment will be when you let your grown up guard fall to the ground. Never lose your sense of wonder!
Sorry is a too small of a word sometimes. It does not include the sorrow and the pain it caused someone.
To say, and truly mean that you are sorry for something you said or did, means that you understand the hurt your behavior caused. It does not excuse a hurtful behavior, but it means that the person you hurt matters to you.
If your intention was to never hurt this person, there is a big chance that the other person will recognize that. Forgiveness can take time. Be patient.
We are all human and we do make mistakes. It is how we handle our mistakes that will define us. If you let your tongue slip and your words hurts another person, there is no way to take those words back. They are out there, and have sneaked in to the other person’s heart. You need to make it right again, but how? The only thing you can do is to ask for forgiveness with all your heart. If you know that you have hurt someone, let them know how sorry you are. Do not be proud or scared to be rejected. You need to do right from your end of the relationship.
If the person forgives you, is not the same as your behavior was justified. It just means that both of you recognize that your relationship is worth fighting for. To not let words spoken in frustration destroy what you do have together; let it be a friend, child, parent, or a lover.
I assume most of us are walking around needing to forgive someone who has hurt us in some way. To hold on to resentment will only bring poison to our souls, and we are hurting ourselves more that way. If you are able to forgive someone for his or her actions that hurt you, you are setting yourself free. Do you need to ask someone for forgiveness, or do you need to forgive someone? The time is now.
Today I am the one asking someone for forgiveness. I messed up some time ago, and my words hurt someone I love dearly. It all came from my own shortcomings and judgmental mind. So what do I do after I have asked for forgiveness?
Today I am trying to be a better version of myself than yesterday. I am also trying to give the person I hurt both space and time for the wounds I inflicted to heal. I pray for forgiveness as loud as I can. With all my heart.
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When you start trusting a friend with your heart, you are actually giving them a piece of your heart. If that trust is broken, the missing piece in your heart is not replaceable.
Someone that I trusted and loved with all my heart, just used and deceived me. I fully believed it was true friendship, but I was fooled. This person was a real good actor, and my brown eyes were too blue.
It will be awhile until I will dare to trust a new person completely. The hurt of this deceit will take some time to get over. I have time, but I don't have another heartache in me.
For now I will fill the empty piece in my heart with all the love that I have for my true friends. My friends that are in it for the whole ride, with bumps in the road and all.