I'm day by day falling in love with my home town again. It's been a few years since I was able to appreciate the beauty that surrounds the city. All the history that breathes from the architecture is part of my own history. The water everywhere enlightens my soul. My family and friends are all warming my heart. I feel the blood rushing when I step outside and I know that I've fallen again. I've fallen in love with Stockholm once more.
The Time is Now
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Yesterday is gone, and tomorrow is not promised. All we have is the present, so treat it as the present it is. Seize this very moment and be mindful of being here NOW. It might not be a pleasant moment, or it is one of the most beautiful seconds of your life. Regardless, it is all that you have. Make the most of it.
That does not mean that you need to DO anything, it can simply mean to just BE. To feel what you are feeling, and not escape into yesterday's regrets or tomorrow's worries. Be in the NOW right NOW. This is all that we have ... The time is NOW.
The Pull of the Moon
With the full Moon on Friday, my internal tide has been running high, and it has been running low. It has been pulling me in all directions with a nervous energy for a few days.
I had to figure out how to use this strong energy in the best possible way. The Moon, so close to the Earth, affected my mind and made me feel that I was less in control of my emotions. The heightened activity of my sub-conscious mind enhanced my feelings, emotions and desires. They all surfaced to my conscious mind, and I felt the distress.
During a full Moon as well as a new Moon the pull on the Earth is more powerful than other days. I know the only thing to do is to ride out the storm. Easier said than done this time. I went to bed last night and the energy within me fluctuated like the ebb and flow of the tide. I knew it meant that I needed to bring awareness to release some negative energy.
I got up from bed, put on my robe and stepped outside in the quiet night. As I slowly walked around the house I realized the night was not so quiet after all. I heard birds high up in the trees, critters running into bushes and leaves gently rustling in the wind. I did not hear any noise, only soothing sounds from nature.
I stopped walking in my garden, looked up at the starlit sky and I was bathed in the full Moon energy light. It made me breath deep, and I let go of my edgy vibrations. Standing under the luminance of the full Moon, I felt closer to myself again. My intentions were clear, and I used the strong energies to bring myself closer to my goals, especially the spiritual ones.
Not everyone feels the energy from the Moon, and not everyone believes that you can be affected by the Moon. But if the ocean can move with high tide and low tide, why can't we? I'm a firm believer that the Moon affects us. I just need to learn how to use the strong energy in the best possible way.
If you happen to be like me, you probably need some rest now. With the ebb and flow of the tide, choose to go with the flow.
My Mormor - My Grandmother
My "Mormor" should have been 95 years old today. She has been gone for about four months, and not a day goes by when I don't miss her. I can still hear her gentle voice in my head and sense the caring touch when we held hands.
This picture was taken last Christmas when I saw My Mormor for the last time. I knew when I left that we would never see each other again, and the feeling of knowing overwhelmed me. How could I go on without her? Thanks to her love in my veins I was able to. She lived for three more weeks, but is forever alive in my heart.
Today I will honor and celebrate My Mormor's life, and her beautiful soul in the best way I can. I will buy a large bouquet of sunflowers, because that was our favorite flower. There will also be a vase filled with both red and white roses, for love and remembrance.
I will drink my afternoon tea from the cup with sunflowers that she gave me, while reading her favorite poems (as they are mine). Soon I'll go for a walk in a beautiful sanctuary, every step for My Mormor, as she also loved to walk.
At night I'll light the candle with "The Tree of Life", that I received from two dear friends. I'll light the candle for one of the most beautiful branches in our family tree.
My Mormor is still with me. Our love remains.
Thoughtful Thing
Things don't mean a thing, is what most of us know when it comes to real life. What really matters is LOVE. Except when a gift is received from a special person close to your heart. Then the meaning of the gift can multiple, like it did for me on Mother's Day. The necklace I received is beautiful, but it's more than that. It represents the infinity love that the children and I share.
I will wear this necklace with pride and happiness. The necklace came with a meaningful message that rings true. We are part of one another. The circle of Love will continue forever.